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The Reality. November 11, 2009

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I believe in hope. I believe in change. I believe in butterfly effect. I want to think fantasy, want to stay away from the present untruth world, and keep my own castle in the sky, a world full of my thoughts. A dream world, according to me, made by me!

I often see people trying to stay close to reality. This may be because they find the transition from a dream world to a real world as problematic. Or they just don’t want to see themselves in the world they always desire. What is the real problem with just thinking what you want, or thinking literally anything? I believe that it won’t change the reality much, but will for sure make it a better place to live!

Birds swimming, fish flying, four legged laughing buildings, cycles speaking, a cup of coffee with someone at Mt. Everest. What’s wrong with you flying with the action of your hand? Zooming in and out with a blink of your eye, and whoosh you got teleported to wherever you want. Walking on the water, riding on the air, flowing with sound. Quietly smiling within when all others looking surprisingly at you.

Everyone is free to catch its own butterfly with her mind, you just need to open your eyes, and it shall fly! It’s dynamic, existing for only a small time. But definitely gives us happiness.

Yes, this was in fact written for you, to make you feel that the dream world is not that bad after all. There is nothing wrong in thinking what you always want to be, considering yourself as the owner of your own mind, own world. At least I hope so. Forever.

 

Amen.

I Suffer. September 30, 2009

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An absolutely pessimistic post, about what happens when you are in pain. Pain because you know what is happening, but can’t help it. You, trying to ‘be the change’ in the situation even worsens it.

You try to think things that didn’t happened. Thinking that you can come back easily from this situation, can easily come up to the surface of this deep lake to which you are into. Strangled in the green grass of the lake.

I want to rain along with the clouds, flow with the wind, fall along with the tear. Just want to get out of this situation. I want to come out of this unending, true dream.

My hands are shivering and are cold with sweat. I could feel the blood flowing in my veins, could feel every little possibility of things going wrong. Just want to hear a word “yes” for my only question “will you be there with me?”

I just want the time to stop, so that all this would stop and I can hide in the little places dispersing in the time tornado. Or all I could ask for after experiencing all this is forgiveness. Or should I still suffer, and wait for the time to never stop?

Amen.

The Darkness. September 8, 2009

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It happens sometimes that we wait; we wait because someone will be there when we leave. Wait in order to be replaced by someone else? Why can’t both of us be there together? Why is it that I had to leave when you will be there? We do need to spend some common time. Some very fruitful time, enrich our life with this time.

Whose fault is it? Is it that the lively colors cannot come along with the blindness? Or is it that chaos leaves peacefully for the tranquility to settle? We do not believe in the full moon till we haven’t seen the dark side of it. Call it the vicious circle of universe, but someone has to sacrifice for the other somebody to exist.

I keep the doors open, happily and readily for the anti of me to come and replace me. So it means that emptiness waits for you to break it. Dreams are seen just to be wakened up by someone in between? Silence recognizes itself when supersonic sound breaks it? Should silence not be allowed to spend some time with its counter part sound? Would loneliness never want to meet someone? Won’t it not require someone to share its wisdom earned after so many years of hardships?

Confused by the paranoid situations occurring in front of me, I sometimes ask myself; does corresponding thoughts intersect?

If light has reached somewhere, then it does imply that darkness would have been there long before we think light reached. So should I admit that it is darkness due to which we are acknowledging the importance of light in our life?

Feel lucky enough to have spend some common time together. Pretty lucky !

Amen.

Don’t die so soon… August 14, 2009

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In my mind, or should I say the so called Grey matter, there exists some unidentified thoughts which often trouble me. They question me, force me to change the perspective of everything I am looking at. My each and every action is sometimes governed by some unique quanta of free energy, which it takes me to a situation of virtual high.

I can’t live like this. Sometimes I see my peace flying away in front of me. Finding peace in you is one satisfaction, to see it escaping away in front of your closed eyes is another. You are satisfied to death, that at least you saw it.

When I am fast asleep, in the warm, comfortable armor of dreams, similar thoughts traverse them. Trying to kill my dreams. Death is painless they say, patterns of butterflies pass by, waiting for me to decode them. Why are you still alive is what they will ask me next time I dream.

Drop it, and it shall bounce back some day. I believe in the four letter word ‘hope’, since its with me forever. It looks like it’s the other side of coin called life, one of which is dream. Life is bright it says. And I hate people who interrupt it. My thoughts tell me I live life unwillingly, just for the sake of existing, I tell them its still noon; please don’t die so soon. I need you for my survival.

Amen.

The Free Fall. June 4, 2009

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I think I am standing in nowhere, my eyes are closed, heart still beating, I can feel the pulse in my left wrist, and load of my featherweight body on my 2 legs. I am wearing shoes, no skull cap; yeah I can still touch the silver ring in my right hand’s little finger. No, I am not in my room, nor in my balcony. The wind is cold, hitting my face hard and naked. Even the left ear is paining due to the cold airstream here. This is the present.

The next moment I got a push from the back, I opened my eyes and Ohh man, I am flying, and or rather I should say crashing down to the ground level. I tried to see who pushed me, all I could realize was a building roof, and a hand with a ring in the little finger. Was that me?

Anyways, all I now know is that I am flying. An ache in my chest, a heart attack? I remember some words “when there is no imagination, there is no fear”, and it always worked. I folded my hands, maneuvered myself so that I can see the sky, cloud stained, shades of grey all over it. The cold breeze whistling in my ears, and I am going down at an incredible speed. What would I imagine now? The whole life was flashing in my eyes. I looked through the eyes of time. I think I did a good job? And of course a lot of unfinished tasks. This was the past.

And then I saw a distant star, between the grey clouds, a bit of smile visible in its twinkle. Just a thought, was it a sign what I just saw? Was it me who pushed the other me crashing down? I think I have seen it all, the life, the sky, the rain and the me. I knew it, I was the one who pushed me down, as this was what I needed to experience, to see my entire life, pondering upon dreams I had and everything. I think I am reaching the ground level, In a moment I would be lying on the ground, unable to move. Ohh wait!?

My silver ring is no more there in my little finger, Oh My God, who was that, the one who pushed me? And Dhupp..

I opened my eyes, in a room; sweat over my forehead, the only thing I remember was my silver ring,  and I tried searching for it , it wasn’t there in my little finger. I got up, brushed my teeth, saw a familiar shape in the sink, and there it was, my only silver ring. Just on the verge of getting disappeared. I know what It wanted to show, fill the box of life with chocolates of pure, true and divine flavors, love syrup, and adventure coatings. That’s what you are going to remember forever.

I always knew that I am one of the fanatics who talks to himself, but this was the first time I did it this way. To free my self, to dream for me, to live as if I exist.

Amen.

Satanicenthu.

Amen October 28, 2008

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Amen : The word Amen ( ; آمين, ’Āmīn ; “So be it; truly”) is a declaration of affirmation found in the Hebrew Bible and New Testament. Its use in Judaism dates back to its earliest texts. It has been generally adopted in Christian worship as a concluding formula for prayers and hymns.

Dear Lord,

May my dreams come true, Amen.

Please don’t make me dream so much, Amen.

Make my thinking boundless, imagination infinite, Amen.

Please make me think less, Amen.

May I help everybody, Amen.

Please help me, Amen.

Lord change the myself in me, Amen.

Please make me see myself, Amen.

……..

Dear Arpit,

What do you want? ohh fanatic.

……..

Dear Lord,

Grant me some peace, a little of a pure peace, mixed with a lot of satisfaction, Amen.

Lord, if you can reply me, then why not other people cannot feel you, listen to you, read you. I want to see myself, Amen.

……..

I got it, so should you, Amen.